diana'

i just realised something..
in three years time i will be in university.
in six years time i will be working.
OH MY GOSH!
its horrible la.

if i am in singapore,
in four years time i will be in university.
in seven years time i will be working.
i have one extra year as a student.
i want to fly back singapore now!

according to michelle,
i can go back to singapore for university
but i must go to UBC for a year
and go to a singapore university as an undergraduate.
i will start studying
and get straight As for grade 11 and 12
to get into UBC!

good luck to me!
i will be a nerd after summer holidays.
i am so going to ace all the tests!
except english..
i only at most can get a B.
saddddds.
why my english so lousy??
)))X
__________________________

i realised how much i missed singapore
these few dayys.
i really miss laughing out loud in classes,,
arguing with the teachers,
sms during classes,
crap in class,
copying homework.

here i am like a guai kia.
i hand in my homework ON TIME,
i keep really quiet in class,
i dont really talk in class,
i PAY ATTENTION in class.

see the difference?
now i know why i become
an emo kid.
lols.

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posted by Anonymous @ 10:29 PM 0 Comments

blehhhs.
got a scolding from my dad today,
and is like early in the morning
because i walked to slow to the car.
freaking pissed off.
weird la.
like that also can scold.
pro-ed la he.
haiiis.

classes today were slack..
never do much today
which is a good thing i guess.
hahaha.

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posted by Anonymous @ 9:26 PM 0 Comments

hohoho.
i changed my url and blogskin!
wow.
its been ages since i changed it.
hahaha.

anyways.
school is horrbile as usual.
feel like dying there.
blehhs.
omg.
my science overall i got 88%!
i dropped 3% because of provincials.
suai-ed.

weees.
(X

posted by Anonymous @ 10:27 PM 0 Comments

blehs.

feel like deleting this blog,
and make a new one.
to write emo stuff and crap.
LOLS.
good idea right?
haha.
i will do it one day.
got so many things to write.
haha.

cheers.

posted by Anonymous @ 1:05 AM 0 Comments

saddening.
school going to reopen again!
I haven't finish my homework yet!
I still have 4 book report,
4 chapter personal response,
chinese novel personal response,
chinese presentation,
math homework
and read To Kill The Mockingbird.
LOLS.
I read the book before.
But need to reread,
I must score very high for this unit!(x

Spring break didn't do anything
but at least I get back my 8hrs of sleep.
In 2 days time,
I will be getting less than 4 hours of sleep
due to pia-ing of homework and stress.
LOLS.

weees.
Now 1.45am.
And I am still wide awake.

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posted by Anonymous @ 1:40 AM 0 Comments

An Anatomy Of Melancholy - by A.F. Harrold

If you’re filled with doubt or you’re feeling sort of lonely
If you’ve lost your way or your My Little Pony
If you feel unsure and you can’t find the light
If you’re filled with indecision in the middle of the night
If your cat’s left home and your dog has just died
If you’ve bought a new car but you’ve never learnt to drive
If you are shot by a robber whilst standing in the bank
Or your mother walks in while you’re having a worry

Then spare a tiny thought for the people you meet
On the pavements by the side of the road or the street

because…
some of them are sad ‘cause they can’t do this
and some of them are sad ‘cause they can’t do that
and some of them are sad ‘cause they’ve never had a kiss
and some of them are sad ‘cause they’ve never had a cat
and some of them are sad ‘cause they’re stuck up a steeple
and some of them are sad ‘cause they don’t like people
some of them are sad, yes some of them are sad,
some of them are Portuguese, but most of them are sad

If you find you’re looking for an exit to the maze,
you’ve been trying turnings for several days,
and you’ve tried backtracking but that’s got you nowhere,
if in your frustration you’ve removed your hair

and it’s fallen to the floor in clumps
and you feel like the zookeeper stuck in the zoo
locked inside a cage irregardless of your tryin’‘
cause your keys have been swallowed by a giant little lion

then look through the bars to the people in the crowd
and note the vacant eyes and the sighs out loud

because…
some of them are sad ‘cause they’re very very fat
and some of them are sad ‘cause they’re very very thin
some of them are sad ‘cause they’re just a doormat
and some of them are sad ‘cause they never give in
some of them are sad ‘cause they don’t like drinking
some of them are sad ‘cause they took up thinking
some of them are sad, some of them are sad,
some of them are Interior Designers, but most of them are sad,

some of them are sad ‘cause they’ve got a big winkle,
some of them are sad ‘cause it’s never been seen
some of them are sad when they stroke their pickle
some of them are sad ‘cause it’s turning green
some of them are sad ‘cause people don’t like 'em
some of them are sad and extremely frightened
some of them are sad, some of them are sad,some of them are doing alright,
but most of them are sad.

So if you feel your life has stalled somewhat,
well, maybe it has stalled
or maybe it has flopped,
maybe it’s collapsed in an ineffectual heap
and maybe you said sheeps when you meant to say sheep

Well,
I don’t have advice that will make it all better,
I don’t have any key to undo your fetter,
I don’t have an answer to the doubts that rankle,
nothing I can say to you will help you cancel

the sadness inside,
but you’re not alone
look out your window or listen to your phone

and you’ll see that…
some of them are sad ‘cause of what Freud said
some of them are sad ‘cause of Groucho Marx
some of them are sad ‘cause they’ve been haemorrhoided
some of them are sad and they like to play darts
some of them are sad ‘cause of schadenfreude
some of them are sad ‘cause they always avoid her
some of them are sad, some of them are sad,some of them get by,
but most of them are sad,
some of them are sad ‘cause they don’t have a willysome of them are sad
and they’re very very sillysome of them are sad,
some of them are sad,some of them can smile in public,
but most of them are sad

some of us are sad and don’t like to admit it
some of us are sad and attempt to quit it
some of us are sad (see this poem I’ve penned)
some of us are sad and this is the end.


blehhs.
I am freaking pissed with life.
I can't freaking go back to Singapore.
Why is life that unfair?
All thanks to my pathetic life.

Hais.
Nothing to look forward to le.
I have no idea what is the purpose of my life.
Can anyone tell me?
Is this the life i am suppose to live?

I have been thinking so much these few days.
What is the difference between living and dying
if there is such thing as heaven?
If heaven is that great,
why can't i just go there
and leave all my troubles in earth?
Ekks.
I have no idea
why am I thinking about death.
Maybe it seems appealing to me bahhs.
I want to escape.

)X

posted by Anonymous @ 9:36 PM 0 Comments

crap.

I am not freaking going back to singapore
during summer holidays!
FREAK!
Meaning I can't watch Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix !!
walaos.
All thanks to my older brother
who still need to attend to university during the summer.
wakaos.
I am so pissed.
I am going to be stuck at home for two whole freaking months.
Save me man!
I want an airticket back!
)x

posted by Anonymous @ 3:56 PM 0 Comments

blehhs.
人生好痛苦，为什麽这些事会发生呢？
好想逃走，把一切都忘掉。。

wees.
Why can't people just stay the same?
OMG.
I can conclude that human beings are all selfish.
Thinking to much does not help the situation.
I shall just forget and forget.
Scientists should invent a pill to let people forget all the unhappiness.
It will be such a good invention.
I will be the first one whose going to buy it.
I freaking need it.
I want to fly,
to escape from this horrible world.
I am jealous of the birds flying in the sky.
Whenever they want to escape,
they just fly away and away.
I want to be a bird
if there is such thing as next life.

My parents got pissed with my little brother.
The reason is because he got a C+ for science.
OMG.
What is the problem of getting a C+?
Not as if he is going to die or something.
I am so freaking lucky
that i manage to get at least a B for all subjects.

In two years time,
I will be in a university.
OMG.
Time really flies.
I want to be a child again.
I want to be free from problems.
I want to be happy.

These few days,
I sink into depression.
Everything seems horrible.
I want to be the girl I was
when I was still in singapore.
The crazy, able to express her feelings openly,
never feel EMOTIONAL.
OMG.

)':

posted by Anonymous @ 11:20 PM 0 Comments

wth.

found out something
so freaking pissed off.
what is the problem with you.
how can you treat people's feelings
that badly?

one day the world will turn against you.
i am willing to bet on it.
time is going to prove it.
you are not that great either.

)x

posted by Anonymous @ 9:01 PM 0 Comments

hungry.hungry.hungry.

i am waiting patiently for dinner.
haiiiiiiiis.
i ate so much during lunch
and here i am feeling so hungry.
i am so going to gain lots of weight.
three cheers for me man.

today
school ended early.
but still.
it felt really longgg..

tomorrow
last day of school!
spring break is coming!
woots.
going to whistler
to ski,snowboard!!!!
counting down anxiously.
heees.

going to pia hw soon.
after dinner.
when i have the strength.
LOLS.

(X

posted by Anonymous @ 7:04 PM 0 Comments

lalalas.

i am currently sick still.
congrats to me.
didnt get to sleep the past 3 nights.
lalalalas.
i had twice a serious nose bleeding.
hohoho.
luckily i am still alive.
LOLS.

anyways.
school is as usual.
and i had moodswings during math.
walao la.
the sub teacher=lousy.
dont even know wth she is saying la.
i got pissed and shut my tb close
and start reading a book.
haiis.
and my freaking written section in math
i got 22.5/23.
OMG.
0.5!!!!!!!!
because of the freaking division statement.
freak the sub teacher.

tomorrow only have 10mins lunch break.
wooohooooooooo.
and there is pe!
how the hell the students can survive through la.
what is going through the principal's brain.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhs.

tommorrow=suck

posted by Anonymous @ 8:46 PM 0 Comments

blehhs.

i am so pissed
with hanayoridango2.
walaos.
one more ep
den got one woman come out!!!
freak la.
hahahaha.
ok i am done venting my anger.
LOLS.

today.
i got no voice for the first two block.
blahsblahsblahs.
english gt sub teacher.
weird one.
but nice guy(x
chinese discuss the movie.
ok bahhs.
just really funny.
hahaha.

during lunch i gone crazy.
i pratically using the top of my voice
saying the guy is shuai.
ahhhhhhhhhhs.
so paisehs la.
den michelle and alex were laughing at me)x
saddening.
haiiiiis.

math the teacher also sick.
he also cant talk tt clear.
haha.
hope he get well sooon!
he is a nice teacher(x
planning got presentation.
walaos la.
they all so gooddddddddd.
so going to die.
i need to get a FIFTY!!!!
may god bless me.

blehhs.
flyaway'
(x

posted by Anonymous @ 8:12 PM 0 Comments

ahhhs.

fangyangdexingxing
is so freaking nice!
i cried at the first ep.
haiis.
shibaishibai.
first time cry at the beginning of the show.
LOLS.
bt its really touching and funny(x
the main character freaking shuai!!!!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhs.
his smile is a killer.
LOLS.
go watch now!!!!!!!
joe cheng new drama
not bad..
but kinda boring in someway.
bt who cares.
as long as he is shuai
nothing matters.
LOLS.
i am so pratical.
hahaha.

tomorrow start school!!!
ahhhhhs.
sians.
dun feel like going school..
haiiis.
)X

posted by Anonymous @ 6:05 PM 0 Comments

omg.

john tucker must die
is really a good movie(X
ahhhhhs!!!
though the guys arent tt shuai,
but its really nice(x
haha.
so people go watch it!

its really interesting
to see my school in that movie.
they change the library.
the com lab become an empty room.
haha.
didnt know the boys locker looks like that.
(X


sians.
still sick.
but now no more fever.
didnt sleep much yesterday.
sianded.

cheers.

posted by Anonymous @ 8:06 PM 0 Comments

blehs.
shall post twicce today.
lalalas.
i now currently having sore throat and fever.
woooots.
my face is freaking red now.
like a tomatio..
blehhhs.

slpt awhile just now.
but still feeling as horrible as b4.
haiis.

birthday coming le.
but not in the mood to be happy at all.
22 days more.
i want an air ticket for present!
if someone sponser me one.
i will pratically love that person!
hahaha.
but is impossible.
$2000 for a ticket bothways.
eekkks.

MICHELLE!
i know you are jealous
that i am going back to singapore.
haha.
just admit it la.
ahaha.

lalalas.
i must remain positive.
the cup is half filled not half empty.
weeeees.
cheers.

good luck to people who is as stress as me!
remain happy!
haha.
(X

posted by Anonymous @ 7:28 PM 0 Comments

sick.

i am officially sick.
i felt like crying the whole day in school.
so uncomfortable.
almost didn't survive.
tried to keep myself happy.
but it failed during pe.
go away sickness!
i can't stand it.

anyways.
i found a movie film in my SCHOOL!(hwss)
wanted to watch it.
but dont feel like downloading.
shall wait for the person to accept my friendrequest.
weeeees.
cant wait to see it.
hahaha.

one more week to survive.
then is HOLIDAY!
weeees.
but doubt i will feel high at all.
i must be pia-ing hw.
wooots for me.
hais.

time is going too slowwwwwww.
stay positive dianatan!
must survive.
weeeeees.

=.=

posted by Anonymous @ 3:40 PM 0 Comments

stress.

omg.
this is the first time
i feel so stress.
deadlines after deadlines.
never ending deadlines.
projects,assignments,tests
wow!
i regreted choosing these courses.
why are they torturing me??
it is never ending la.

hais.
tomorrow project due
english test.
wow.

next week
tests,assignments,hw,project DUE.
sian la.
the only think i can be optimistic
is holiday is coming!!!!!!
i must suffer so much
just to get a week off from school.
isn't it fantastic?
blehs.

so sleepy now.
these few days been sleeping really late.
ranges from 11pm-2am.
due to pia-ing all the things that are due.
woohoooooooooo..
i am going crazy.

i can't wait to go back to singapore.
i want to save up to buy a ticket to go back.
i miss all my friends
and shopping ard without restriction..
i am stuck in a tiny room with a laptop.
boohoooooooo.

cheers man!
time is running out.

posted by Anonymous @ 9:34 PM 0 Comments

heyhey!

omgomgomg.
watch a tw show.
one guy freaking SHUAI and CUTE!((x
a mix la.
brazil and taiwan.
blehhhs.
i want to move to taiwan le la.
so many shuai guys.
i want hwss to have that kind of shuai guys la.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhs.
i am obsess with shuai guys nnow.
blehhhhs.

today kinda stress out.
freak la.
planning project due nxt week
havent go to the charity
to interview la.
going to fail planning le.
thankyouthankyou.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhs.
i miss life when everything seems peaceful.
haiiiis.
life is never easy.
i declare!
haha.

(X

posted by Anonymous @ 9:27 PM 0 Comments

blehs.
i realised that my computer can write chinese!
thats freaking amazing.
since the fact i bought it in canada.
lols.
stayed up freaking late for the stupid 华文报告..
all thanks to the amazing teacher i have.
and i stayed up till 1 plus to finish all my hw.
and miraculously i didn't felt tired the nxt morning.
wow.

i guess my body is getting use
to the amount of time i use to sleep.
weeeeeeeeeees.
i broke my record of slping late this week.
EVERYDAY i slept at 1+ this week.
hw is driving me crazy.
blehs.

oh ya.
my math dropped to a 97.6%!!!!!!
i am so pissed at myself.
i am no longer the top of the class.
walaos la.
i am so going to get 100% for the rest of my tests.
if not i will jump down the building le.
math is suppose to be easy.
ahhhhhhs.

going to take math honours 11 nxt year.
hopefully i can end up the same block as michelle.
haha.
so long never crap in the class le.
i am like so quiet in every class i am in this semester.
i am kind of impress of myself.
dianatan graduated from being the noisiest person
in the classs.
woooooots.
three cheers to me.
i bet if i go back to singapore to study
i will be quiet too.
i master the art of keeping quiet in classs.
hahaha.
part of the reason is
i am always listening to my ipod.
and i cant believe that none of the teacher
confiscated it.
i guess the teacher rather the class be quiet
than noisy bahhs.
singapore should actually have the system
we have in vancouver.
its really nice.
we get to eat in class,
listen to mp3/discman,
drink in class.
isnt it fantastic?

oh ya.
my planning from a A drop to a B!
walaos.
all thanks to my stress package.
i thought i can get straight As(except pe)
this semester la.
i am going to score well for YPI
to increase my marks!
good luck to me!
i will maintain my marks for all my subject.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees.

posted by Anonymous @ 8:23 PM 0 Comments

freak her.

so freaking pissed.
is none of her business if i skip
like 4 grades in her freaking class.
does she like know in singapore
there is such thing called HIGHER CHINESE?
so whats her bloody problem la.
she should think abt it.
i am so not flunking her class.
she do not need to insult me right.
as if i want to skip all the way to 12 right.
are you just trying to tell me i am dumb?
so what if i am.
is none of your freaking business.

i am so going to
ott pay attention in your freaking class.
dont even bother to ask me
to ans ur freaking questions
when no freaking person
know the freaking answer.
i am so going to conclude
ALL chinese teacher
only know how to insult their students
for no freaking problem.
of course there are few exceptional teachers.
but is so not her.
she better pray hard i dont lose my temper.
if she does,she is so going to suffer.

freak her.
freak chinese.
freak school.
freak life.

blehs.
feeling much better now.
ahhhhhhhhs.
omg.
one day i am so going to lose it.
i dont want to be someone
i was in secondary school.
i want to be a good student for once.
i want to let people know
i can control my temper.
but no one is freaking helping.


lifeisfreakinguseless.
ifthereissuchthingasheaven,
iwouldrathergotherethanstayinthisfreakingearth.

FREAK LIFE.

posted by Anonymous @ 6:51 PM 0 Comments